It's the 3rd month already....
Though it's juz a short period of time, but it seems like we have been together forever...
The comfortable feeling I experienced whenever I'm with you, the happiness & blessed feeling while thinking of your love for me, the sweet, sweet feeling while thinking of you.
Gosh..Dear Dear you have such a special effect on me & you always makes me feel so special.

We started off as a total stranger, living in 2 complete different world.
When did our path begin to cross then?
Maybe if not for the steamboat dinner on the 15th June, we will never get to talk to each other despite working together for the last 8 days. I almost did not make it for that dinner date @ 1st, but I'm glad I did not, otherwise I may be missing out a the greatest deal of my life. hee hee...
If we did not get to talk, then maybe today the 16th would juz be another ordinary day to us.
Thus, I like to indulge in the fantasy that my abba father had these great plans for us already & that is why cupid strikes.

Another month has passed & YES!!! we are another month closer to our dream.
Though the road towards our future is long & sometimes it may be bumpy, but I'm glad that we are enjoying the process & the grace of our Lord will see us through all worse time.

Juz wanna tell Dear Dear that I love you & thank you for being there for me all these time together. It's my honour that you share ur world & dreams with me...I'm simply falling head over heels for you everyday.

If I had never met you,
I wouldn't like you,
If I had never liked you,
I would have never loved you,
If I had never loved you,
I'd never miss you.
But I did, I do and I will...

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Sweet Gesture is :
~ "Tao-paoing" dinner for us when we are working late in sch
~ Popping by my school unannounced with food for us
~ Meeting me @ 9 plus in the night throughout the week when I was rushing proj deadline, juz to company me for dinner, even though it was juz for an hour
~ Allowing me to go ahead with some plans, even though deep down you do feel jealous about it
~ Surprising me by appearing @ my house unannounced & double surprising me with a rose
~ Attempting to help me fix my door lock, though it isn't successful yet
~ Buying rocher for me again, coz u dun wanna me to go hungry in sch
~ Cooking dinner for me last sat (8th Oct 05)
~ Bringing me home (= meet ur parents) right from the start of the relationship & willing to meet my parents too.
~ Ur growing love for me

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Would like to used this entry today to extend apology & give thanks....

Extend my most sincere apology to frens whom I have hurt with my words....

But once again, I would juz like to clarify that what ever written in the past entries is a very general remark that I would usually conclude after seeing certain things happen in my life repeatedly. For eg. I maybe facing a same situation during sec sch & almost a decade later, I find myself back in the same circle. I'm not finding faults @ any specific person or a specific issue.

I think my words are being misunderstood, but as diff people have diff interpretation on a same issue, thus misunderstanding arise.

But since it's a misunderstanding, then it means that neither party is @ fault on any part.

But still I would like to clear the stale air & say SORRY!

Another thing is expressing my most earnest "THANK YOU to Grace Wai Lai Kuen"!

Thank you Grace, really never,never expect you to tell Cheryl aabout the blog entry.....

So thankful to you for helping us clear the air....If there is a much more stronger word than Thank U, I would definately used it, but for now, you just got to be contented with that word hee..hee...

Really nv expect to recieve a sms from Cherly asking me to go read my mail....

Bracing myself for the worst, while retriving my mail....

But things juz simply turn out well, well things could nv become worse under God's grace & blessing rite?

So glad that the air is cleared, Thank You Cheryl, for taking the 1st step to clear the misunderstanding.

The biggest thank you should go to my Abba Father & Lord Jesus....

What more can I say? What could be impossible under you? How can your work be anything but beautiful & perfect?

Seeing more & more God's perfect work in my life, & tis dawn on me...

Christian life is not that hard as I used to thought....Juz have to place my faith in Him & be @ rest.... I guess it is nv too late to realise tis now....

Juz let me continue to bath in His blessing & favours, & with His guidance through my walk of life & of coz dear dear help too....I will continue to prosper abundantly in life. Amen!

God is Good!!! WoooooooHooooooo.......

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@7:47 PM

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Haven't been blogging very regularly lately, there is so much inside me which I wanna pen down, but sometimes I juz can't find the right words to express it out, otherwise I'm just plain lazy....
Looking back @ this semester....I should say plenty had happened....


Started a new relationship...new things to learn,things that I got to accustomed to, change of lifestyle...blah blah....
Things were not so smooth-sailing in the beginning, being hurt by his past, my past & a bitch..but guess I did overcome it.
All these may not be healthy for a new, growing relationship but by the grace of Jesus we were deliver from this darkness & growing stronger as the days goes.
Really thank the Lord for blessing Chris into my life.
Dear you have really been a great support to my life for the past few months, in my social life, in my christian walk and school life. Being pamper by you, being love by you, being care by you....U simply light up my life.....Other than saying "Thank You" & devoting myself to love you, I guess there is nothing else I could do.


Juz the beginning of this semester, can I say I had lost a good fren?
I really dun know how things turn out to this state...we juz stop contacting each other, stop going bs & sunday svc together, stop toking in sch....
I missed her presence in my life....missed catching-up with her over meals....
Guess it's my fault, being indecisve, not handling matters well enough
But I did try to sms her, apologise her & msn her....Juz nv recif any reply fm her...
Hurt & tired of trying too hard for now....
I juz wanna tell her, regardless if she ever forgive me...."I'm Sorry, Cheryl. Miss U!"

Gained financial independant...if u know what I mean....It means having to settle all my bills by myself now, after ending the previous relationship...
Maybe I shouldn't had rely too much on him in the past..but anyway...
Really feel so bogged down by all the bills that come in every month
Had been working on-off tis semester, but with the horrendous project work load, it doesn't leave me much time anyway...
The peanuts I recif isn't enough for all this at all.....
Arghhhh...when will I clear those debts?????


I wonder why do I always experience some problems with friends?
Am I too sensitive? Think too much? Or I really do got attitude problem that I dun find favours in friendship?
I do not want to try too hard in pleasing everyone, but I juz want someone to be brutually honest to me & smack the truth to my face & tell me WHAT THE HELL IS THE PROBLEM?
Hate the feeling of being left out...But am I really left out or I just refuse to join in?
If ppl do not like me, I rather they tell that straight to me, than pretend to be friendly to me....Coz it juz keeps me guessing all the time..& all this guessing is driving me nuts.
Juz what is wrong? I really wanna know the answer...Why I can't I do a better job in understanding myself to spare myself all this misery.
Never have I had close good frens..& never will I have one....coz I juz sux in handling any relationship.

Old frens like William had often said that I had mature & grown to be a happier person....Yes its true...but the old me is still inside...inferior complexity, pessimestic....

Gosh....been pinning so much inside me recently....tired of putting up a strong front...

I may put up a sbc attitude all the time, but in fact I'm tearing into pieces inside me..... Everything really matters to me...

Juz feel like giving up everything now....wanna run away...contemplating with the idea of quitting school....

Suddenly I feel that I'm back to square one again....In 2003, I decided to break away frm work, friends & other issues by going to study as I wanna a clean break from that past.....& today I too wanna have a break from everything assoicated with my school life....Juz wanna get away from it....Otherwise, I can't wait to graduate, so that I can disappear from the face of that world...

The only thing I can do now is drown myself with vodka.......drown...drown...drown

Lord, I know there is nothing I can do with all this, it's all not within my control, the more I try, the more I fail...& the last thing I can do now is pray & cast all this to you....but Lord if you hear my prayer....can you just take me away from this world & bring me back to my Father's home? Coz this willl definately solve every single problem, as the root problem will be removed...

The root problem is me, my thots, my personality, my views & my attitude......

I'm tired.....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@9:25 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Today entry is dedicated to William Yaw Wai Lian (haha..I know he love me calling him tis way)

(who left Spore today)

Yesterday meet him in the evening for dinner... had jap food again, that is what we usually have when we meet up for meal, but this will probably be for the last time.

After dinner, decide to pop over to Kbox to satisfy my ktv-ing craving....

Halfway thru the session, both of us realise that we have not go for ktv together for a long, long time already...hmmmmm was it abt 2 years?

Haizzz but I never regret missing those time.....you know why? Coz William can't read chinese character...thus I got to read out the lyrics to him verses by verses..trust me..it is very tiring..at the end of the session, my mouth is tired not with all the singing but with those speed reading..haha...

But I must say, I really did had a great time there, singing cute, cute songs by Wang Fu and many other super high high songs haha....

After ktv session, drop by his place for a drink as well to collect the moo-moo cow he got for me & a few bottles of wine...hee hee now my collection is really growing..

1 thing I must say is that Cabernet Shiraz really dun suit my palate. 2nd time I'm drinking this & I really think it does taste Yucky!!

Catch up alot too that night....many, many things that he once kept it from me was shared.

Maybe he does feel that he might not be coming back, so might as well bare everything to me.

I learned a lot that night....makes me sad...make me feel bad...makes me feel guilty...makes me happy...makes me touched..makes me thankful.

Sad that you are leaving & I wun be able to see & tok to u as & when I like.

Feel bad that I can't give you anything in return for your love, concern, care, time, effort put in me.

Feel guility that for so long you have always been there for me but I never realise it, but think you had forsaken me.

Happy that what a true friend I have found in you.

Touched for the love, the things you done for me.

Thankful for befriending you & you always standing by me.

William...William....what can I say?

It all started off with a chat outside at the terrace on Oct 2002, followed by a phone call that night...when did we become close friends i dun quite remember? when did I start liking you I oso dun rem...

What I rem now is the time when the both of us were promoted to jr captain the same time, you had helped me alot, guiding me thru & always helping me with the big tray & heavy stuff.

Becoz of my injured wrist, you will always help me carry those heavy stuff or get the other colleague to help me...& you will always, always throw daggers @ me when seeing me carry heavy stuff .

Rem 23rd Dec 2002? Like you always say, it is definately the most 'suayest' day of my life. But so thankful that you came to shield me away from the 'xiao cha bo' who was barking @ me, when I was not @ fault, thank you for searching me high & low around the hotel when I ran away crying. Feel sad enough that I was wrongly reprimanded, & accused of not being a good supervisor coz I did not teach my staff well by that tooo-pid guest...But thank you for comforting me over dinner. but as u rem..my ordeal was far fm over...I trip & fell @ the stairs...glad that you were there to break my fall if not I would had substain more serious injuries ba. Juz so thankful that you was there to go thru that difficult day with me.

What I will always rem is the boozing days @ Gossip, Caesar & Paulaner, tepanyaki meal @ bugis, cable car ride to Sentosa & the musical fountain, me helping you to move ur stuff to ur new place, countless movie session.

Memories that are so fond..that are very alive in me.

I used to wonder why we couldn't get together after so long, after so much, but I juz couldn't get an answer.

When you want us to be together, I was uncertain, but when I made up my mind, you pushed me away....& the cycle went on for 2 yrs.

What I can say now is that, after going through this ups & down together, we know that this friendship built up is so precious & valuable that we juz dun wanna risk it by going into a relationship.

Though sometimes it will ache, but Im juz glad that things are kept the way it is now.

Juz so thankful that you are always there for me, sometimes even without me knowing, but you always stay on by my side...like what you called yourself, my shadow.

Juz wanna apologise that I had took up so much of ur time but can't give anything in return. But this time you can concentrate on building ur career without having to worry about me coz like what u said, I have grown up, I know what I want with my life already, I know how to take good care of myself & I had also meet a very nice guy-->Chris who will take good care of me. Pls dun let me hold you back in ur plans, if not I will feel more guilty.

I sincerely hope that you will be successful in building a new career path in msia, so that the next time I see you, you are already a 'Big Towkay" & can drive me around in Mercedes or BMW...hee hee....

I am already missing ur presence in my life..juz wanna let u know that you always hold a special place in my heart..so if you ever need someone, Im always there for you, no matter the miles between us.

Jia You oh...my guiding star....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@10:29 PM

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Started pre-bday celebration yesterday....
Reserved a room @ Royal Plaza on Scotts to spend 'tian mi mi' day with dear dear....
After check in is R&R till dinner time...
Took quite some time to decide where to go for dinner..some much options..
But finally decide to settle @ Al-dente @ Holland Village..haha partly becoz William is working too...so got a best buddy to celebrate with me too.
Think picture speak a 1000 words..so juz look down for more photos on the happening of that night.

Photos before leaving for dinner:

(L) I like tis pic..though it's blurry...coz it's taken by me muhaha....
(R) Another pic of us...dear took it tis time wif steady hands haha...

During Dinner:

Food.....Food..Food...YUMMY!!!
Of coz not forgetting beer & red wine..

Got tis pressie from William...& open up the box..I saw tis msg....
Tat ass made a fool out of me.....ARGHHH!!!

..

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So it's REVENGE TIME!!!

Muhaha...tis is wat u get for fooling me...

He later then gif me another pressie wif a card too..
Tearing open the wrapper I see many shredded Archie comics page (sob...sob)
How could he shred my favourite comics?
Anyway..@ the bottom I saw the surprise pic..thot I was fool again by him...
until I lift up the board & saw wat lies below....

Tis lies rite @ the bottom....
OMG!!!It's iPod nano..
Apparently my bday fairy decide to grant 1 of my wish
becoz I have been good haha...
Really got a shock of my life!

After recovering from shock is more photos.....

Fantastic nite wif food, wine, best buddy & most importantly Chrisee Dear...
& of coz not forgetting the surprise & dream pressie that william has planned for me.
Truly enjoy myself....
After dinner (which is already 1 plus in the morn), head back to the hotel for more wine session...
Hmmm but the wine sucks!!! hmmm maybe juz not to the both of us liking....
But still had a great time drinking, squeezing into a chair wif dear, watching tv together & chatting wif him...

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Woke up to have bfast with dear dear before walking down to cineleisure to get movie tix for the afternoon...
After that went back to room to nuah around & had a short nap....got so much time to slack

Before we left....

Dear dear helping me to stick the screen protector on my baby

Went to watch The Myth by Jackie Chan...Hmmm.. I like the show, the plot, the scenery, the actions....everything...except that some of their computer graphic kindda fake...but overall its GD..GD....
Went to shop around for a pouch for my iPod but couldn't make up my mind which to get @ crumpler coz they dun have it in red so was in a dilemma on what other colour to choose.
In the evening went to meet Chye Ping,Shu Yi & Jimmy for dinner @ bugis for steamboat...
waited for a long time for a table & by the time..I was really staving already.....
Had a great time feasting.......
Receive a bottle of red wine fm them..think Im really 'famous' wif my drinking habits ah...


Really had a great 23rd bday....spending time with dear & frens & receiving sms wishes fm family & frens..even some fm frens I seldom heard fm & frens fm Penang too... & not forgetting dear's mummy too....so sweet of her to call.
But you know what is missing this bday? A bday cake...the 1st time in my 23 years bday i never had a bday cake..
Hmmmm so sad...
But Im loving tis yr bday celebration..maybe becoz of his presence in my life...
Dear Dear..ur presence had been a special & great one in my life...
Really enjoyed the 2 days with you & I really thank you for all that you had plan & got for me...
Really love every moment of it & hope that u do too....

Not forgetting to thank William too..Dude..thanx for everything that you arrange for the nite..really appreciate ur thots...

He sms me too (the last one to do so)..thot he had forgotten abt it already...
then juz call me to chat awhile...
the feeling I have upon hearing his voice is not like b4 I think...
maybe the feeling is slowly fading away already...

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:55 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Dear Dear came over in the afternoon to visit me..hee hee...
To visit my swollen eyes & buy lunch for his dear who was too lazy to go down to get her own lunch.
Upon entering the gate, he presented me with this...


A Bday card from my darling

After lunch, received another advanced bday pressie for him

Snow Wolf Lake DVD Limited Collection
I like the box, its a purple velevt box
with the word chinese character inscribe on it.

Dear dear say since he can't bring me to go watch the musical so he got the disc instead for me.

Probably he must have seen me kept toking abt the musical & ranting how I will love to watch it.

Yeah! & I love this pressie....coz I can keep it with me & watch it anytime...

Dying to put it on my player now but with proj & exam, think I will have to put it off till the holidays....

Then can watch with Dear Dear too...YIPEE!!! can't wait for the day to come.

Dear Dear, thank you for the m)phosis skirt, the card & the disc.....looking forward to fri & sat with you.

Took some pic of dear @ my place earlier on....

There is 3 pic that I like, but can only post 1 up coz for the other 2...think dear will skin me if I put it up...but seeing that 2 photos really make me roll on the floor & laugh.

Think got to keep it between us ba....

Love his smile...maybe tats what attracts me in the 1st place

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@10:58 PM

ARGHHHH.....woke up with a swollen left eye tis morn......

felt sharp pain for a week already but swelling started last nite

& tis morn..........haizzzzz...

Hmphh...how can I go to sch with 1 puffy eyes?

Headed down to the doc earlier tis morn...

cyst(growing my eyelid) + infection = "Ba Jiam"???

I think so ba....

the only thing I can do now is to take the antibiotics, use the eyedrop & placing a warm towel on the eyes...trying to make the cyst "burst" faster...

Haizzz...& I am told to stay off my contact lens for the time being....

But....but...but...how can I go out wearing my horrendous, nerdy glasses..

DARN!!!!! What a thing to happen when the weekend is jux round the corner.

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@1:16 PM

Monday, September 19, 2005

Finally settled another proj today...
So it's now 2 down & 2 more to go...
The remaining 2 is gonna be a killer, coz we r gonna race against the time...
2 projs within 2 wks...& its lotsa research, 3000 words report & a presentation to come up with.
Thinking of this is killing me already....


Dear dear gave me a surprise again today...
He called me up early tis afternoon to ask if I haf to stay late in sch or anything on in the evening....& I reply no.....
then he ask if he can meet me then? I sense something fishy.....something's cookin....
ask him wat it is abt, but he juz reply that he juz wanna meet for dinner.
Met him after school...& he kept having tis wide smile & grin on his face....
so double confirmation on my suspicion.

He then took out a m)phosis bag fm his bag....& I knew what he got for me already....

Haha..the skirt I tried on yesterday but feel that its quite ex to pay for it......

Dear Dear thank u so much for the advanced bday pressie....

Really loving it.......tis time i really feel u r spoiling me already...

but nevertheless, thank u for the sweet thots....

William called me up with a proposal on my bday pressie.....

Something I really want....but...but.....it's too expensive for a pressie for a fren ba....

Had a hard time saying no to him, even though deep deep down I really wanted to shout out YES!!! haha...*tsk...tsk*....devilish thots again...

think I juz got to be content with dreaming for the moment....

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@11:05 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Reminder to myself....

Once bitten, twice shy

Bitten twice, fak off fm it!!!!!!!

Stay away fm out of bounds area....

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@12:13 AM

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Thots of the day....

WARNING: It's another super, super, extremely long entry....& trust me it might not be worth ur time coz I'm juz ranting & raving....

Wat is it that you know abt promises?

Will you promise something or to someone else easily?

After making the promise, will you keep that in mind constantly?

Will you try very hard to fulfill that promise made?

Or izzit juz a casual comment or remark that you can make to anyone?

I guess I would try hard to keep any promises I make, that is if I remember...

but with such an attitude & statement, I guess I really dun take promises very, very seriously.

Or maybe I can juz cover tis up by stating that I have got a very, very short memory.

I guess in a relationship, it is a must & very important to keep the promises u make to each other...

But wat abt..if the both of you are not together already?

R you still liable or responsibe to do so?

I guess not.....but cK have different views....

Nv will I expect him to want to keep the promises he made to me b4...

Y will he wan to do so? I really dun know....

The only explaination he give me was that he had promised me this b4 & he want to keep his words...

But I dun wan him to do...coz I think thats very silly....he will be brand by others as a dumb guy who allow an old love to take advantage of him....

I dun wan him to be taken as a fool by me...

I dun wan him to be taken advantage by me...I cant do it...

He dun own me anything, anymore....

All promises is void the day we ended everything..isn't it so?

Dun be so nice to me..I can't give anything back in rtn. there is nothing left for me to give already..am in no position to do so anyway.

But I really do appreciate his thots...in fact I'm very, very touched.

I did nothing to deserve this..in fact I do plenty not to deserve this...but still.....

Whats the defination of a boyfren or galfren then?

Maybe many will say that they treat their bf or gf as their very close or best fren too..

But do you share with them everything in ur life, ur darkest secrets or some most inner thots?

Sometimes I truly believe that there is some issues that is very difficult to open up to them ba...

I dun know what but there is sure to be 1 or maybe a few stuff...

though as much as you like to share with them, you will fear that it will hurt them, it will displeased them...so end up you either keep it buried inside you or just share with ur other frens...

then it will be such an irony to promise each other that you will share everything with each other rite?

I like to drink...like the high feeling...sometimes even super high

Juz tat I hate the hangover feeling, puking my guts out & I hate it when I end up not remembering the details of last nite, esp the nitty, gritty details of conversation I have & most especially what I say to others...

I recall that he used to like to make me drink coz he says that only after I drink then will I be more vocal, especially with my inner feeling & thots..maybe that explains why we always have a weekly drinking session @ his home.

But most of the time, I dun even rem what I shared that nite b4...& he will juz laugh @ me...

Missed those days...

these days, I realise that I had begin to drink @ home ALONE...

That is something I dun used to do @ all...used to think that drinking @ home is dangerous & drinking alone is pathetic..

But these days....I will juz sip vodka in my room by myself....maybe the temptations is there becoz of the btl of vodka sitting on my shelf...

juz wanna chill out & relax myself...maybe becoz I have less drinking kakis already...

Thinking of the past again..bad habits I know...but bad habits really die hard...

Must blame William I think..called me a few times today & chatted of the past...

I missed the days working in BT, in Santa Kitchen, the time the gang hanging out @ Gossip, the time when we gather together to gossip & complain of our manager & work, the people I befriend there....

Memorable 4 yrs....I learn so much during that time...From a young 19 yr old to now..they seen me grown over this years.

I really miss those past..

Can't say I wish to go back to those times...coz if I can do so, then all these would not be so memorable, so precious to me already.

Memories should be beautiful...coz whatever that is unattainable or unreachable is always the most beautiful.

I wanted it to go @ first...but now I juz wanna stay inside me beautifully....

not hurtingly..but beautiful.....Can I?

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@10:37 PM

Hmmm...Since my bday is round the corner, plus christmas is juz 3 months away...
Might as well come up with my Birthday-cum-Christmas wishlist.... (Hopefully my birthday fairy or santa claus will stumble upon this blog entry & grant me all my wish..hee hee *keeping my fingers cross*
Well, without thinking hard or long, I manage to come up with this list
So look on.....

~iPod mini~
I want the silver one...hmm..& juz a 6GB one will be good enough

~iPod nano~
was checking out apple webbie & saw their latest mp3. tis is juz as cool...
but the largest storage is 4GB.Beats better than nothing..
think I now prefer this than the mini...hee hee

~Xda II mini~
Really would love to own this now...
It's jux so cool...& Im dreaming of it almost everyday

~Michael Buble Live in Concert~
OMG! He is having a concert on 10 Oct.
I wanna (x2) $125 tix...
[so that dear dear can watch wif me hee hee]

~MayDay Final Home Concert~
It's on the 10th Dec (tentatively;details not out yet)
But would really wanna get the front seats tix...

~Absolut Vodka~
I want all favours & most importantly...I wanna a life-time supply..haha

~A new pair of glasses~

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~Adidas Jacket & Bag~

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~Sponsorship for my Australia trip + a short getaway trip to bintan~

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~$100 voucher from any CD shops so that I can get some Cds I have been wanting to~

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Well, the list could have gone on & on...but on the other hand, better not be so greedy...so thats all for now.hee hee....
Hmmm...going to dream of tis items already...when will tat day come ne?

By the way, gave William 2 'zhen zi' juz now to bet on 4D....
If he strikes.....haha....he had promise me all those abv haha.....
But hey william even if you dun stike 4D, juz choose from any items abv & get it for me k...
Hmmm...wait..wait maybe you should choose 3 instead...(1 for my bday pressie, another is you going away pressie & lastly of coz..advanced x'mas pressie..haha)

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@6:40 PM

Friday, September 16, 2005

Sweet gesture for this week......

~ You coming down yesterday and today juz to buy tidbits for me

~ You meeting me for dinner (even its juz for an hour)

~ You came down & bought dinner for all of us today

Precious gesture....... ur tears......

Today is the 2nd mth already.....

Almost can't make it to this day but..eventually we still did....

You nv having the intention to let me go, always holding on to me, always making me feel loved.

What more can I still ask from you dear??

Nothing...coz I know without me asking for any, you had already given me everything & the best.

Light of my life....Pillar of my life....

Nv will I want to walk away again....Coz I dun wanna miss a thing from ur life...Neither will I wan u to miss mine...

With His grace, better days are ahead.....

Another day is over...& we r another step closer.....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:56 PM

Thursday, September 15, 2005

William saw the photo 'card' that I did for dear dear & pester me to teach him.....
of coz I did not...muhaha....
But in the end he came up with tis all by himself haha....
Check tis out...

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@1:38 AM

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

My last day to enjoy b4 Cp & Sy back from their holidays = got to go back sch for proj again!
Meet up with dear dear after his class...It's his presentation today...glad that things went on smoothly for him.....1 down & 3 more to go for him!
Went to get a card for Eddie & Karen on their 1st born.
Then was roaming around @ citylink then when I saw Gelera, *Ding* my eyes lit up...
Its Tuesday! = Waffles @ 1/2 price.
So decide to stop by for waffle + 2 scoops of ice-cream b4 our dinner.
Then strolled down to esplande to pass our time....coz waiting for dinner time.
Had dinner @ Ichiban again..but we did not had much food there....
both of us were still overstuffed with the dessert earlier on...& dear dear initially still wanted to go for his 2nd waffle...wat a pig man! I think he can forget abt having dinner if he really had that.
After dinner, went up to the rooftop for a short chat & he help me with the design of the card too. So sweet of him..Thank u dear!

Parted with dear later in the night, & I went over to Addicted to join the gang for a drink.

It's a long due gathering...a gathering coz William will be leaving end of tis mth.

Had fun drinking & catching up with them....

Though somethings happen tonite that makes me feel kindda down...but still enjoy myself overall...

But @ the end of the gathering, I know tis will be the last time I will join them for such session for the moment...

Maybe 1 day when I know I will not be bothered by the past, maybe when I know I will not have that feeling.....then Im ready...coz I know then I have already move on.

So.....anyway it's photo viewing session.....(will cherish this memories & photos more than ever.)

At Addicted Place.....

William & Me

Jacky kor & me

The best BT team always...

On our way to O bar...super high & tired...

At O bar

William & Me againn..

The TORN among the roses....

Liu Rui, Betty, Fiona & the TORN (as usual)

Super High Group Pic

Betty & Me
The bond btw us is really amazing..We seldom meet up or tok much,
in fact we dun really know each other well but
whenever we c each other, we can juz share everything with each other
Juz feel so comfortable toking to her everytime

Yet again...the TORN is here....

I will really missed those good times we have together....but I know I got to make such a decision & stick with it..
Coz I dun wanna go round in circles & circles forever..Wanna break free from it...
Most importantly, I dun wanna hurt dear again...I know he wants me to break free from tis chain as much as I do.
Dear..gif me more time, I believe I can do it..Thank you for ur support...You r always there to lend me ur greatest support..always by my side helping me..Really thank u for ur patience & love for me.

I WILL BE FREE!!!!!!

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:50 PM

Sunday, September 11, 2005

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:13 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Went back to work today....after abt 3 weeks of absence...

Im out of touch with work already....juz a 8 hr shift really tire me out.

By the end if the shift, I juz wish I could plop on a bed & Zzzzzz..... my bones seems to be snapping already....

Luckily the thot after meeting dear dear after work keeps me alive....

As usual dear dear got to wait for me, spotted him sitting down outside esprit stoning him away...

When I see him, I really got the strong urge to jump up to him & hug him......but something stop me.....I saw flowers in his hand......HAHA....dear dear surprise me with flowers again...

YEAH!!! Im so spoilt by him....hahaha but Im lovin every sec of it...

He is really a sweetie, getting flowers to cheer me up after my hard day @ work.

The flower dear got for me, but is it daisy? or chrysanthemum? or ???
Neither dear, nor me know.
But there is 5 of it.(though u can't see it from the pic)
very nicely wrapped too, with mt favourite green colour ribbon.

Went over to funan to get his stuff, then head back to MS for our dinner @ Fins....

For the 1st time, we actually was mulling over what to eat, coz dear usually know & will decide what we r gonna eat...

Carls Jr, Changing appetites, Cafe Cartel then finally decide on Fins...

After dinner, stroll down to Esplanade, but its very very packed, everywhere is people...can't even find a quiet spot to lovey dovey...hee hee... But enjoy the strong breeze & dear arms around me.

Disappointed that the nite got to end early coz dear got to go back to his assig & I was feeling very drained anyway....

Dear Dear, thank you for coming down to meet me, even when u r rushing for ur deadline. I understand k....we will have plenty of chance to go out and have fun again....I love you.& I really loved the flower. Thank You!

Something interesting......Guess how many gals I spot carrying flowers tis evening? It's 5!!!

At the 2nd person I saw, I was telling dear dear that if I saw another gal carrying flowers, I will make him carry the flowers for me haha... (*tsk...tsk* spoilt brat rite hee hee)

Maybe it's the wkend, that explains why so many ppl got flowers ba..

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@10:37 AM