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F.o.o.T P.r.I.n.T

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you."

*[T.h.E K.e.e.P.e.R]*

At times, I'm an AnGeL...
BUT most of the time, i'm actually a DeViL in disguise...

Name: Evangeline Sim aka Evan
D.O.B: 24 September 1982
Calling: An angelic & devilish student in SIM

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

Hurt...Wounded...Dispirited

Some background knowledge to share before reading today's entry...Jacky( my kor) is my damn good friend, whom I can crap with & will always listen to all my whinning & ranting. We had known each other for about 4 years...& he just had this gf,Cheryl about a year....She & I are not really very associated with each other as she seldom hang out with us, but our relationship is still growing, trying to be more friendly with her coz I treat her like my da-sao.

It all started like this....
Today, was suppose to be working at swiss, so being that kind, thoughtful little soul *phui* ,I went to buy cake for Cheryl as a treat coz they had been nice to me since my first day working in the hotel.
During work, Jacky shared with me that earlier on in the morning, he had a tiff with Cheryl due to some work issue...So I should have known that she might be feeling kindda low...But failing to realise this, I still went ahead to find her & to give her the cake.

Seeing her at the cashier counter, I called out to her,
Me: Cheryl...
(She did not reply me, neither did she look towards my direction, so I walked to her & tap her...)
Me: Cheryl.... (still she turn her back on me), this is for you (handing her the box of cake)
Cheryl: I don't want it! Take it back!
Me: But I bought it specially for you..... (heart breaking already...)
Cheryl: I don't want it! Take it back!
Me: But....This is not Jacky who bought it for you...It's meeeee.... (about to start tearing...)
Cheryl: I don't want it! Take it back!

Boy...I was really very hurt & sad at this point of time...looking like a wounded, pitiful puppy, I left the cake there & walk back to my work, with tears brimming in my eyes that threaten to overflow anytime ...

I really feel so hurt..for so long never felt so dejected.
It's like when u are in kindergaten school days & ur 'bestest' friend say to you "I don't wanna friend you already". Sad rite? But why is that so?

Reason 1: I took a cab down to work today coz time was kinnda tight & i wanna make sure I got sufficient time to go buy the cake...In the end, I was still late for work.
Reason 2: I got a private limited allowance for the week (as usual), but still I burned it on the cab fare & the cake....not that I mind REALLY...

To be frank, it really spoil the rest of my afternoon.
After a while, Jacky did realise my change in mood so he sounded me out...Well I did told him what happen, which makes him kindda unhappy with Cherly more coz he felt that she shouldn't treat his good friend like this. But, he cooled down after a while... Glad so, coz dun wanna feel worse with this additional issue ...
Franky speaking, I'm not mad at her, juz hurt that she treat me tat way even though I was not the 1 who offended her & my good intention was not reciprocated...Haizzz izzit true that it never pays to be kind/good? Or am I silly?
But nevertheless...I will never give up...Never say die hahaha..

Got to chao...Too much booze makes me hard to concentrate on my writing...
Off to rest...Nitezzzzz....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:32 PM

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