~CountinG dOWn To OuR mOMENTs TogetherR~

F.o.o.T P.r.I.n.T

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you."

Sunday, July 31, 2005

Dedicate today's entry specially for my dear Chye Ping.......

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Happy BurpDay to You!

Happy BurpDay to Chye Ping.....

Happy BurpDay to You!

Happy 24th BurpDay Gal!!!!

Hope you had enjoyed celebration with us on tue & with Jimmy today & this year birthday is a memorable one for you....

It is really such a blessing to have you as my project-mate and friend...

You have really been like a da-jie to me, & a joy to my life.

May you be blessed with all good things in ur life & may all ur dreams come true.

Cheers!!!

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:54 PM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

During dinner juz now, mummy finally ask me the question....
Mummy: Are you & ck still together?
Me: *flash a million mega watt smile @ her*
Mummy: Izzit so??? I had a dream 2 weeks ago that both of u not together liaoz...
Me: Ya...

Mummy go on & ask me for the reason & blah...blah....
Ask me why always be together with a guy so long then want to break off.....
Hello is not that I want to rite?
It's always together for some time then u will start to realise some differences that both of you can't work out, no matter how hard you tried.
I'm just as sick & disappointed when all these relationships doesn't work out...
So much effort & time put in but it always end up with such a closure...
I too very much want a relationship with a happy marriage as the end result...
I know all this will come, with the grace of my Father....
But for now, maybe I got to meet a few wrong ones, to actually know he is the rite one when he appear in my life....
Meeting the few Mr Wrong teach me many things too, to see guys in a different light, to curb my temper, to pamper him, how to treat him well & blah blah...
So that when The One came along, I can present the 'best-est' side of me to him...
Someday my prince will come..... Someday my prince will come......

Now alone in my room (yipeee...bing bing had finally gone out to meet her bf )
all lights off.....except for the lave lamp & lighted some candles...
with michael buble's song playing in the background & of coz not forgetting my favorite aroma scent burning....
& most importantly, sipping on my vodka...

Mmmmmm....

That's my 4th enjoyment of the day....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@9:20 PM

Such an enjoyment to wake up to the sound of the rain hitting against my window...

It means an excuse to for me to sleep late & laze around in bed...

Enjoyment double with a hot bowl of mummy-licious porridge in this cold cold weather...

Enjoyment triple when listening to corrine may's songs & my favourite aroma scent burning in the background...

Mmmmmmm....

Maybe what is missing is a cup of nice, hot tea & someone special to share tis moment with me....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@3:36 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

Spend the whole day @ home today....
It's been a long, long time since I spend the whole day @ home coz always got to keep a big kid company hee hee....
Today is the time when I can spend my day juz in front of the TV, watching programs that I had missed for the past few weeks & doing stuffs that I had put off for weeks.
These days, I had been so engulfed by all the activities in my life that I haven't had the time to sit down on my own & reflect on all the things that is happening in my life now & the plans ahead.
Sometimes it seems that I'm in a rat race now, forever chasing after the time & rushing for different activities & programs for the day, from the time I'm up till late.
Well not that I'm complaining, but I do feel that I'm living each day to the max now.
Coz my life used to be evolved around me nuahing in my room, me in my own thoughts & I seldom had much program except to meet him during his off days.
So there is really a big change in my life now...
I'm so thankful & glad that frens play an active role in my life now, so thankful for the circle of frens around me now.
Although frens come & go in our life, I really hope they will stay in mine always...
Really cherish what I have now...
Actually I do feel that this is the greatest time of my life!
It's the PEAK & it will excel even more!
Life is Good! Never been better

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@10:46 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Went over to collect some of my stuff today.

Purposely chose a time when he will not be @ home

Upon entering his room, saw 3 bags of stuff on the floor...

He has everything packed for me already...

Seeing the bags there, tears start to flow again...

Juz can't bear the sight that my stuff are packed & left there...waiting for it to be taken away..

Such incident happened twice before, & the feeling is just still the same....HURTFUL!

Can this dun ever happen in my life again?

But I did not take away everything, juz book & things I need...maybe he will throw away all those clothes I left behind ba....

All the photos have been taken down already, even the tall table & chairs where we we used to sit beside the window to drink & chat was moved out of the room already.

But the cross stitch still hang on the wall, the large bottle of paper cranes still remain on the shelf. (secretly hoping that he will not throw away these coz some much effort was spend doing it.)

Everything feel so different already...Being back in the room brings back so much memories...

Tears juz dun stop flowing....

Couldn't resist but did something for him again...the last time I can do it again.....

Tidy up his room, pick up the clothes lying on the floor, empty the ash tray & make his bed for the very last time...

This time... everything has come to an end....

Thankful that Chrissee Dear was waiting for me outside,

His presence there constantly reminds me not to linger there too long..if not god knows how long I will stay there.

Dear, thank you for ur patience & understanding @ tis pt of time...

You never breathe a word of complaint ever once....

Thank You Dear...

Give thanx to our Heavenly Father everyday for bring you into my life...

Now I truly know whats the meaning of significant other....

You had really light up my life...

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:45 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

The long overdue tears came flowing today....
While packing up those stuff, vision just became clouded with tears...
Had a hard time pullling those picture from the wall, juz like how it feels to uproot the feeling inside me..

Then got to spend some time to scrap off the blue tack on the wall, juz like how it takes time to nurse the void inside me...

But after that is done, still some paint came off the wall & left a hole there, juz like my heart left with a gap & scar...

Not that I'm done wif all this, I have no idea what to do with it..packed but nowhere to send to...

Wanna bury it...but where? Dig a hole @ the reservoir? or is the rubbish bin to best place to bury it?

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:48 PM

Had a great nite out last nite with the usual gang & of coz my chrisee dear too....
Celebrated Chye Ping bday in advance...well she is a busy gal, so of coz we aren't able to book her on the actual day, so got to settled for today then.
Went to Ichiban Boshi @ Esplanade for our dinner..
Food was kindda disappointing but the company always make up for all the disappointment.
After dinner, we stroll outside for some photo-taking session...@ that time really felt like a tourist, posing & snaping here & there...In the end, all of us were so dazzled by the strong flashlight, courtesy of sy's camera haha...
Finally, make our way to the esplanade roof-top to present CP with the cake & pressie & sing bday song (@ the top of our lungs, guess we really spoil the quiet & romantic atmosphere for every couple up @ the roof-top @ that time hee hee... )
Really glad that CP like the pressie & card we got for her...& do hope she had enjoy the nite with us.
I had a great time tonite...prob the last outing we have till the end of our projects & exam, & that will be about 3 mths from now....But anyway chrisee dear bday is coming up too..so @ least something to look forward to.

It's photo-viewing session again...

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Oppss...Chrisee Dear & me is caught between the smoke-screen couple (Sy & Wj)

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My favourite GFs but elsie is still missing(for now...heehee)

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3 couples( 2 real, 1ermmm...not confirm yet haha..
Sy, it will be nice if next time can go on a triple date rite? Jia You oh..
& of coz Grace(who took tis photo), Im waiting for u too so we can take a 4 couples photo.haha so exciting...

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Finally the 5 gals united...

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Photo of the Day
Simply love tis photo, coz my chrisee dear is so cute hee hee..
Love his smile..

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@1:01 AM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

What an eventful happening last night, but so thankful that our father lead us out of the darkness & into the light.... He is sooooo.... good, always feel so blessed to be in His dwelling.

Praise Lord!

Together wif Chrisee Dear, we met up with shuyi, chye ping, jimmy & elsie for dinner @ geylang. Had 'tian ji' porridge... But we sure took a long, long walk to get there. Walked all the way from city plaza down to Lorong 3. By the time we reach there, we were so famished & drenched with prespiration....Think next time take a bus down better ba...hee hee

Oppppsss...I forget abt my beancurd....hmmm... : (

During dinner, Elsie was telling us about this place near Bugis called My Secret Garden, so we decide to go check out the place after our dinner.

Had a great chill-out session there, nice ambience, but....hmmm...1 bottle of wine to 6 person is ermm.....u guys should know lah hee hee....

Really had a fantastic time catching up & lotsa photo taking with them too...though chrisee dear was like stoning most of the time...maybe he can't stand me being so mushy with elsie haha....

Looking forward to our next meet-up again....

So great to find a female drinking kakis already..Yippee!!!

Received a pressie from Chrisee Dear today.....cutie purple little piggy that will reminds me of him always *muhahaha* & a pair of purple earrings too.....2nd pair of purple earrings for him already....Lovin it.....

p.s: Got to wait for Sy to upload the photo then can post it....Sy be quick k..

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:59 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005

Can someone please tell me what is going on?

What have I done to deserve all this?

Im so crushed...so hurt....but do I deserve all this?

Just what is it that you want with me?

How does it feel to be assured with all the promises & rosy picture of the future earlier but come home to see some things that dashed all your hope?

What is your motive behind everything?

I juz wanna lead a simple life, but why they wanna disrupt it?

Dun wanna play any games....leave me out of it....

Dun drag me--> an innocent party into ur game....

My heart really aches...tears pouring...but who will exactly understand this feeling?

Y get me involved?

No more confidence now...it was taken away already....

D.E.A.D

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:17 PM

I thought that I had already packed it & send it to a faraway place....
But I'm wrong....it's still there
I should not have snooped into some restricted zone....
But I did again.... & it juz makes my thoughts run wild again...
I should have learn to listen to their opinion & not went there....
But we were there.... & things turn out so.....
I should not have insist knowing some things....
But I do know it now....makes me confused more....

Wat a bad start to everything....how can such things happen @ this stage....
Confidence plunge low....

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@12:44 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

A New Start...

A New Beginning to remember...

A New Hope...

A New Chapter of my life...

Came across this sentence on a fren's blog "In our Love Story, there may be Commas, But NEVER will there be a Full Stop."

How true it is...Every relationship will definitely have its fair share of ups & down, storm & sunshine, unhappy & happy moments & the list can juz go on & on with many, many commas. But may the full stop never exist in every relationship. *Amen*

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:37 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Finally I get to watch Initial D today, ermmm...not with Chrisee AGAIN...but with Cheryl instead haha...

I love Shawn Yue to bits man...Love his smile, love his coolness...ARGHH!! Simply Love Him....

But he is 2nd to Lee Hom of coz haha...
My 4th movie within a mth liaoz...& im simply loving & counting to more..haha..(though it may be small deal to some of u, but it's BIG deal to me....)
Well since Im on the movie topic, might as well make a list of the up-coming movies that I would like to watch, & u ppl can make advance booking with me to catch the show together ( Sy & Cp, plz dun say I nv jio u already okie...)

1. Crying Out in the Center of the World [Now Screening]
A Japanese romance drama revolving around two teenagers who fell in love, and exchanged their secrets and thoughts by way of sending tape recordings to each other. The movie the move on illustrating the joyful beginning and tragic end of their relationship.

Hmmm..I really wanna watch this movie very much, wanna feel the simplicity of love all over again...wanna laugh & weep together with the twist of their fate..

2. Charlie & the Chocolate Factory [4th August 2005]
A movie adaptation from my favoutite children classic author Roald Dahl. Willy Wonka, Charlie Bucket...I miss these names.... I wanna a Golden ticket too!!! Will I ever get a chance to visit Wonka's candy & chocolate factory? *dreaming & drooling away*
But Im really hoping that the movie is as good as the book & my imgination( when reading the book) *keeping fingers cross*

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3. Bewitched [9thAugust2005]
I remember watching tis show on the television many, many years ago... Love witches story, their magic spell & the trademark of the show is the way how Samantha (the witch) crinckled & wrinkeld her nose...so cute...

Okie..though only manage to shortlist only 3 movies at this time...but anybody who date me for any other junk movies, I ons too.... as long im not paying for it haha ....Any Takers???

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@10:38 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Did the usual stuff as every sunday.....
Lunch @ Delifrance Bistro & Church Svc with Cherly...
Always enjoyed this with her, coz its the time for us to catch upon our weekly happenings, even though we see each other in lectures too but didnt have time to say much to each other, prob we are too busy with our own clicks ba...
Delifrance got a re-vamp...
Changed their operation...although u still place ur order & make payment @ the counter, but they served the food to your table now. & they haf a new menu too, with more selection of food of coz...
But I still miss the good old delifrance concept.Rem that when i was younger, mummy would bring us there occasionally...& back then it was really a good treat to me & my sister already...
Haizz...still i think i need to learn to adapt to new things faster...
Catch a movie again this week...
Watched Fantastic 4 with Chris (with him AGAIN??? yah yah...I think I finally found a permanent movie kakis haha...)
After movie, we walk over to Selegie, Rochor Beancurd for beancurd of coz haha... had 2 bowls of yummy, smooth & soft beancurd....
Chris was still tempting me to go for a 3rd bowl but i resisted the temptations haha...but really regretted after steping out the shop.....Cant wait to go back there again....*drool*
Off to lalaland already....its sch tomolo again....& the cycle continues..

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@11:35 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

Such an enjoyment to be slurping a bowl of hot velvety mushroom soup, alone @ The Soup Spoon yesterday.

Well rarely will you find me dining outside alone, today is an exception...
But I do enjoy the time, having my soup, watching people passes by & letting my thoughts wander...

So I say a good soup really does wonder to a confused soul...at least, it does calm mine....

Being @ work can also divert one's attention from thinking too much...well at least it keeps my mind occupied from 6pm to 11 pm...

But after that, hmmm...my mind is a whirl again...So in conclusion...

Work is a good Distraction!!!

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@1:01 AM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

After watching A Lot Like Love, this song was on my mind all the time...
It makes me pester Chrisee dear all the time for the song title & singer...
Then finally he found out what the song was & got me the lyrics & I managed to download it too..
Ever since then, this song is always on the repeat play mode....
Always find myself singing the chorus too...

I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU (Bon Jovi)

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance girl

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
Well I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your Valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I wasn't there when you were happy
And I wasn't there when you were down
Didn't mean to miss your birthday baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

Hmmm...scenes from that movie flashed back again....

Won't it be sooooooo sweet when ur special him sing this to you?

Arghhh.....I will definitely melt...haha...

There has been many speculations recently...from our frens haha....

They had been posing me the same question...hmm...

Let me know tell you all k...Listen up!!!

You can either :

1. Ask Chrisee Dear instead for a change ...

He may be able to provide you guys with a better answer haha... (Opps think Chrisee Dear going to skin me when he read this haha...) And whatever answer he give you all, be sure to fill me in k...

2. Pose as a paparazzi (of coz im not saying that the both of us is some sort of celebrity hee hee) & stalk outside our house or wherever we go & take our photos, tap our phone line & listen to our conversation or maybe search our rubbish to see if there is any clue that give away our affair hahaha...

Give either way a try..though I can't guarantee that you will defintely get the answer you want...It's still worth a shot.....Haha...

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@9:16 PM

1. Should one stay in his / her comfort zone all the time? When will you actually know it's time to move out of that zone then?

2. R all out-of-reach things the most desirable? So what take over from there after one got it? Will you treasure it or will you juz dump it in a corner & soon forget about its existence?

The process in trying to get the thing is challenging, exciting, interesting & sweet too....but when you have it wif you, will you still desire it as much as you have b4?

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ScRawLeD by :: EvAnGeLiNe ::
@12:55 AM

Monday, July 04, 2005

Juz came back from movie...watched War of the War...can't believe I actually watched 2 movies in juz a week...coz usually there will be a few months lapse before I catch another movie...On the other hand it also depends on the company I'm hang out wif...Movie Buffs.... hee hee (you know who u r k)
Its a not bad movie I should say....very typical Steven Spilberg's movie...But it does reflect the 2 side of human nature...In times of chaos(as shown on the movie) people would kill each other to grab the chance for them to escape or to live...but on the other hand, some people will try all their might to save a total stranger from danger too...Human are such a complex & scary creature...hard to comprehend...SCARY!!!
Life is also always full of dilemma...whether or not there is choices in ur life, u still face dilemma everyday...When u have choices, you will take eternal to decide on the right one, but when you have no choice, you will still go against all odds to find something else... No one quits until they know they found the perfect, right one... But is there ever the Perfect choice?
Hmmm...why in the world am I ranting these...Haizz...I'm confused..

Think its high time I should zonked out already...Chao.

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