Saturday, September 24, 2005

(L) I like tis pic..though it's blurry...coz it's taken by me muhaha....
(R) Another pic of us...dear took it tis time wif steady hands haha...

During Dinner:

Food.....Food..Food...YUMMY!!!
Of coz not forgetting beer & red wine..

Got tis pressie from William...& open up the box..I saw tis msg....
Tat ass made a fool out of me.....ARGHHH!!!

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So it's REVENGE TIME!!!

Muhaha...tis is wat u get for fooling me...

He later then gif me another pressie wif a card too..
Tearing open the wrapper I see many shredded Archie comics page (sob...sob)
How could he shred my favourite comics?
Anyway..@ the bottom I saw the surprise pic..thot I was fool again by him...
until I lift up the board & saw wat lies below....

Tis lies rite @ the bottom....
OMG!!!It's iPod nano..
Apparently my bday fairy decide to grant 1 of my wish
becoz I have been good haha...
Really got a shock of my life!

After recovering from shock is more photos.....

Fantastic nite wif food, wine, best buddy & most importantly Chrisee Dear...
& of coz not forgetting the surprise & dream pressie that william has planned for me.
Truly enjoy myself....
After dinner (which is already 1 plus in the morn), head back to the hotel for more wine session...
Hmmm but the wine sucks!!! hmmm maybe juz not to the both of us liking....
But still had a great time drinking, squeezing into a chair wif dear, watching tv together & chatting wif him...

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Woke up to have bfast with dear dear before walking down to cineleisure to get movie tix for the afternoon...
After that went back to room to nuah around & had a short nap....got so much time to slack

Before we left....

Dear dear helping me to stick the screen protector on my baby

Went to watch The Myth by Jackie Chan...Hmmm.. I like the show, the plot, the scenery, the actions....everything...except that some of their computer graphic kindda fake...but overall its GD..GD....
Went to shop around for a pouch for my iPod but couldn't make up my mind which to get @ crumpler coz they dun have it in red so was in a dilemma on what other colour to choose.
In the evening went to meet Chye Ping,Shu Yi & Jimmy for dinner @ bugis for steamboat...
waited for a long time for a table & by the time..I was really staving already.....
Had a great time feasting.......
Receive a bottle of red wine fm them..think Im really 'famous' wif my drinking habits ah...


Really had a great 23rd bday....spending time with dear & frens & receiving sms wishes fm family & frens..even some fm frens I seldom heard fm & frens fm Penang too... & not forgetting dear's mummy too....so sweet of her to call.
But you know what is missing this bday? A bday cake...the 1st time in my 23 years bday i never had a bday cake..
Hmmmm so sad...
But Im loving tis yr bday celebration..maybe becoz of his presence in my life...
Dear Dear..ur presence had been a special & great one in my life...
Really enjoyed the 2 days with you & I really thank you for all that you had plan & got for me...
Really love every moment of it & hope that u do too....

Not forgetting to thank William too..Dude..thanx for everything that you arrange for the nite..really appreciate ur thots...

He sms me too (the last one to do so)..thot he had forgotten abt it already...
then juz call me to chat awhile...
the feeling I have upon hearing his voice is not like b4 I think...
maybe the feeling is slowly fading away already...

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@11:55 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Dear Dear came over in the afternoon to visit me..hee hee...
To visit my swollen eyes & buy lunch for his dear who was too lazy to go down to get her own lunch.
Upon entering the gate, he presented me with this...


A Bday card from my darling

After lunch, received another advanced bday pressie for him

Snow Wolf Lake DVD Limited Collection
I like the box, its a purple velevt box
with the word chinese character inscribe on it.

Dear dear say since he can't bring me to go watch the musical so he got the disc instead for me.

Probably he must have seen me kept toking abt the musical & ranting how I will love to watch it.

Yeah! & I love this pressie....coz I can keep it with me & watch it anytime...

Dying to put it on my player now but with proj & exam, think I will have to put it off till the holidays....

Then can watch with Dear Dear too...YIPEE!!! can't wait for the day to come.

Dear Dear, thank you for the m)phosis skirt, the card & the disc.....looking forward to fri & sat with you.

Took some pic of dear @ my place earlier on....

There is 3 pic that I like, but can only post 1 up coz for the other 2...think dear will skin me if I put it up...but seeing that 2 photos really make me roll on the floor & laugh.

Think got to keep it between us ba....

Love his smile...maybe tats what attracts me in the 1st place

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@10:58 PM

ARGHHHH.....woke up with a swollen left eye tis morn......

felt sharp pain for a week already but swelling started last nite

& tis morn..........haizzzzz...

Hmphh...how can I go to sch with 1 puffy eyes?

Headed down to the doc earlier tis morn...

cyst(growing my eyelid) + infection = "Ba Jiam"???

I think so ba....

the only thing I can do now is to take the antibiotics, use the eyedrop & placing a warm towel on the eyes...trying to make the cyst "burst" faster...

Haizzz...& I am told to stay off my contact lens for the time being....

But....but...but...how can I go out wearing my horrendous, nerdy glasses..

DARN!!!!! What a thing to happen when the weekend is jux round the corner.

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@1:16 PM

Monday, September 19, 2005

Finally settled another proj today...
So it's now 2 down & 2 more to go...
The remaining 2 is gonna be a killer, coz we r gonna race against the time...
2 projs within 2 wks...& its lotsa research, 3000 words report & a presentation to come up with.
Thinking of this is killing me already....


Dear dear gave me a surprise again today...
He called me up early tis afternoon to ask if I haf to stay late in sch or anything on in the evening....& I reply no.....
then he ask if he can meet me then? I sense something fishy.....something's cookin....
ask him wat it is abt, but he juz reply that he juz wanna meet for dinner.
Met him after school...& he kept having tis wide smile & grin on his face....
so double confirmation on my suspicion.

He then took out a m)phosis bag fm his bag....& I knew what he got for me already....

Haha..the skirt I tried on yesterday but feel that its quite ex to pay for it......

Dear Dear thank u so much for the advanced bday pressie....

Really loving it.......tis time i really feel u r spoiling me already...

but nevertheless, thank u for the sweet thots....

William called me up with a proposal on my bday pressie.....

Something I really want....but...but.....it's too expensive for a pressie for a fren ba....

Had a hard time saying no to him, even though deep deep down I really wanted to shout out YES!!! haha...*tsk...tsk*....devilish thots again...

think I juz got to be content with dreaming for the moment....

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@11:05 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Reminder to myself....

Once bitten, twice shy

Bitten twice, fak off fm it!!!!!!!

Stay away fm out of bounds area....

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@12:13 AM

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Thots of the day....

WARNING: It's another super, super, extremely long entry....& trust me it might not be worth ur time coz I'm juz ranting & raving....

Wat is it that you know abt promises?

Will you promise something or to someone else easily?

After making the promise, will you keep that in mind constantly?

Will you try very hard to fulfill that promise made?

Or izzit juz a casual comment or remark that you can make to anyone?

I guess I would try hard to keep any promises I make, that is if I remember...

but with such an attitude & statement, I guess I really dun take promises very, very seriously.

Or maybe I can juz cover tis up by stating that I have got a very, very short memory.

I guess in a relationship, it is a must & very important to keep the promises u make to each other...

But wat abt..if the both of you are not together already?

R you still liable or responsibe to do so?

I guess not.....but cK have different views....

Nv will I expect him to want to keep the promises he made to me b4...

Y will he wan to do so? I really dun know....

The only explaination he give me was that he had promised me this b4 & he want to keep his words...

But I dun wan him to do...coz I think thats very silly....he will be brand by others as a dumb guy who allow an old love to take advantage of him....

I dun wan him to be taken as a fool by me...

I dun wan him to be taken advantage by me...I cant do it...

He dun own me anything, anymore....

All promises is void the day we ended everything..isn't it so?

Dun be so nice to me..I can't give anything back in rtn. there is nothing left for me to give already..am in no position to do so anyway.

But I really do appreciate his thots...in fact I'm very, very touched.

I did nothing to deserve this..in fact I do plenty not to deserve this...but still.....

Whats the defination of a boyfren or galfren then?

Maybe many will say that they treat their bf or gf as their very close or best fren too..

But do you share with them everything in ur life, ur darkest secrets or some most inner thots?

Sometimes I truly believe that there is some issues that is very difficult to open up to them ba...

I dun know what but there is sure to be 1 or maybe a few stuff...

though as much as you like to share with them, you will fear that it will hurt them, it will displeased them...so end up you either keep it buried inside you or just share with ur other frens...

then it will be such an irony to promise each other that you will share everything with each other rite?

I like to drink...like the high feeling...sometimes even super high

Juz tat I hate the hangover feeling, puking my guts out & I hate it when I end up not remembering the details of last nite, esp the nitty, gritty details of conversation I have & most especially what I say to others...

I recall that he used to like to make me drink coz he says that only after I drink then will I be more vocal, especially with my inner feeling & thots..maybe that explains why we always have a weekly drinking session @ his home.

But most of the time, I dun even rem what I shared that nite b4...& he will juz laugh @ me...

Missed those days...

these days, I realise that I had begin to drink @ home ALONE...

That is something I dun used to do @ all...used to think that drinking @ home is dangerous & drinking alone is pathetic..

But these days....I will juz sip vodka in my room by myself....maybe the temptations is there becoz of the btl of vodka sitting on my shelf...

juz wanna chill out & relax myself...maybe becoz I have less drinking kakis already...

Thinking of the past again..bad habits I know...but bad habits really die hard...

Must blame William I think..called me a few times today & chatted of the past...

I missed the days working in BT, in Santa Kitchen, the time the gang hanging out @ Gossip, the time when we gather together to gossip & complain of our manager & work, the people I befriend there....

Memorable 4 yrs....I learn so much during that time...From a young 19 yr old to now..they seen me grown over this years.

I really miss those past..

Can't say I wish to go back to those times...coz if I can do so, then all these would not be so memorable, so precious to me already.

Memories should be beautiful...coz whatever that is unattainable or unreachable is always the most beautiful.

I wanted it to go @ first...but now I juz wanna stay inside me beautifully....

not hurtingly..but beautiful.....Can I?

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@10:37 PM

Hmmm...Since my bday is round the corner, plus christmas is juz 3 months away...
Might as well come up with my Birthday-cum-Christmas wishlist.... (Hopefully my birthday fairy or santa claus will stumble upon this blog entry & grant me all my wish..hee hee *keeping my fingers cross*
Well, without thinking hard or long, I manage to come up with this list
So look on.....

~iPod mini~
I want the silver one...hmm..& juz a 6GB one will be good enough

~iPod nano~
was checking out apple webbie & saw their latest mp3. tis is juz as cool...
but the largest storage is 4GB.Beats better than nothing..
think I now prefer this than the mini...hee hee

~Xda II mini~
Really would love to own this now...
It's jux so cool...& Im dreaming of it almost everyday

~Michael Buble Live in Concert~
OMG! He is having a concert on 10 Oct.
I wanna (x2) $125 tix...
[so that dear dear can watch wif me hee hee]

~MayDay Final Home Concert~
It's on the 10th Dec (tentatively;details not out yet)
But would really wanna get the front seats tix...

~Absolut Vodka~
I want all favours & most importantly...I wanna a life-time supply..haha

~A new pair of glasses~

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~Adidas Jacket & Bag~

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~Sponsorship for my Australia trip + a short getaway trip to bintan~

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~$100 voucher from any CD shops so that I can get some Cds I have been wanting to~

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Well, the list could have gone on & on...but on the other hand, better not be so greedy...so thats all for now.hee hee....
Hmmm...going to dream of tis items already...when will tat day come ne?

By the way, gave William 2 'zhen zi' juz now to bet on 4D....
If he strikes.....haha....he had promise me all those abv haha.....
But hey william even if you dun stike 4D, juz choose from any items abv & get it for me k...
Hmmm...wait..wait maybe you should choose 3 instead...(1 for my bday pressie, another is you going away pressie & lastly of coz..advanced x'mas pressie..haha)

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@6:40 PM

Friday, September 16, 2005

Sweet gesture for this week......

~ You coming down yesterday and today juz to buy tidbits for me

~ You meeting me for dinner (even its juz for an hour)

~ You came down & bought dinner for all of us today

Precious gesture....... ur tears......

Today is the 2nd mth already.....

Almost can't make it to this day but..eventually we still did....

You nv having the intention to let me go, always holding on to me, always making me feel loved.

What more can I still ask from you dear??

Nothing...coz I know without me asking for any, you had already given me everything & the best.

Light of my life....Pillar of my life....

Nv will I want to walk away again....Coz I dun wanna miss a thing from ur life...Neither will I wan u to miss mine...

With His grace, better days are ahead.....

Another day is over...& we r another step closer.....

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@11:56 PM

Thursday, September 15, 2005

William saw the photo 'card' that I did for dear dear & pester me to teach him.....
of coz I did not...muhaha....
But in the end he came up with tis all by himself haha....
Check tis out...

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@1:38 AM

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

My last day to enjoy b4 Cp & Sy back from their holidays = got to go back sch for proj again!
Meet up with dear dear after his class...It's his presentation today...glad that things went on smoothly for him.....1 down & 3 more to go for him!
Went to get a card for Eddie & Karen on their 1st born.
Then was roaming around @ citylink then when I saw Gelera, *Ding* my eyes lit up...
Its Tuesday! = Waffles @ 1/2 price.
So decide to stop by for waffle + 2 scoops of ice-cream b4 our dinner.
Then strolled down to esplande to pass our time....coz waiting for dinner time.
Had dinner @ Ichiban again..but we did not had much food there....
both of us were still overstuffed with the dessert earlier on...& dear dear initially still wanted to go for his 2nd waffle...wat a pig man! I think he can forget abt having dinner if he really had that.
After dinner, went up to the rooftop for a short chat & he help me with the design of the card too. So sweet of him..Thank u dear!

Parted with dear later in the night, & I went over to Addicted to join the gang for a drink.

It's a long due gathering...a gathering coz William will be leaving end of tis mth.

Had fun drinking & catching up with them....

Though somethings happen tonite that makes me feel kindda down...but still enjoy myself overall...

But @ the end of the gathering, I know tis will be the last time I will join them for such session for the moment...

Maybe 1 day when I know I will not be bothered by the past, maybe when I know I will not have that feeling.....then Im ready...coz I know then I have already move on.

So.....anyway it's photo viewing session.....(will cherish this memories & photos more than ever.)

At Addicted Place.....

William & Me

Jacky kor & me

The best BT team always...

On our way to O bar...super high & tired...

At O bar

William & Me againn..

The TORN among the roses....

Liu Rui, Betty, Fiona & the TORN (as usual)

Super High Group Pic

Betty & Me
The bond btw us is really amazing..We seldom meet up or tok much,
in fact we dun really know each other well but
whenever we c each other, we can juz share everything with each other
Juz feel so comfortable toking to her everytime

Yet again...the TORN is here....

I will really missed those good times we have together....but I know I got to make such a decision & stick with it..
Coz I dun wanna go round in circles & circles forever..Wanna break free from it...
Most importantly, I dun wanna hurt dear again...I know he wants me to break free from tis chain as much as I do.
Dear..gif me more time, I believe I can do it..Thank you for ur support...You r always there to lend me ur greatest support..always by my side helping me..Really thank u for ur patience & love for me.

I WILL BE FREE!!!!!!

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@11:50 PM

Sunday, September 11, 2005

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@11:13 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Went back to work today....after abt 3 weeks of absence...

Im out of touch with work already....juz a 8 hr shift really tire me out.

By the end if the shift, I juz wish I could plop on a bed & Zzzzzz..... my bones seems to be snapping already....

Luckily the thot after meeting dear dear after work keeps me alive....

As usual dear dear got to wait for me, spotted him sitting down outside esprit stoning him away...

When I see him, I really got the strong urge to jump up to him & hug him......but something stop me.....I saw flowers in his hand......HAHA....dear dear surprise me with flowers again...

YEAH!!! Im so spoilt by him....hahaha but Im lovin every sec of it...

He is really a sweetie, getting flowers to cheer me up after my hard day @ work.

The flower dear got for me, but is it daisy? or chrysanthemum? or ???
Neither dear, nor me know.
But there is 5 of it.(though u can't see it from the pic)
very nicely wrapped too, with mt favourite green colour ribbon.

Went over to funan to get his stuff, then head back to MS for our dinner @ Fins....

For the 1st time, we actually was mulling over what to eat, coz dear usually know & will decide what we r gonna eat...

Carls Jr, Changing appetites, Cafe Cartel then finally decide on Fins...

After dinner, stroll down to Esplanade, but its very very packed, everywhere is people...can't even find a quiet spot to lovey dovey...hee hee... But enjoy the strong breeze & dear arms around me.

Disappointed that the nite got to end early coz dear got to go back to his assig & I was feeling very drained anyway....

Dear Dear, thank you for coming down to meet me, even when u r rushing for ur deadline. I understand k....we will have plenty of chance to go out and have fun again....I love you.& I really loved the flower. Thank You!

Something interesting......Guess how many gals I spot carrying flowers tis evening? It's 5!!!

At the 2nd person I saw, I was telling dear dear that if I saw another gal carrying flowers, I will make him carry the flowers for me haha... (*tsk...tsk* spoilt brat rite hee hee)

Maybe it's the wkend, that explains why so many ppl got flowers ba..

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@10:37 AM

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Another discovery.....

Listening to songs also brings back memories....

Was listening to Jay Chou albums (fm his 2nd album onwards) today.....

Each cd reflect different phase of my life....when I was 19, 20, 21, 22

Y does the past always come back to me?

I'm really waiting for the day when I can smile & look back @ the past without feeling being bothered by it, without it getting me down...

I want so much, so badly for this day to come soon.....

I know it will come, but can it be here sooner????

Maybe deeper & longer wound takes a longer time to heal.....

After that, more time is needed for the scar to fade.....

But can the scar be gone too? Dun wanna it to be there to reminds me of the p-a-s-t.

It still hurts......

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@11:11 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Do you know that smell can bring back memories?

I used to think that only sight can do so....

But today, smelling the J&J milk lotion on my hands bring back memories of penang...

Hmmm...why is that so ne? Well maybe that is becoz I used that for my hands and sunburn during my 1 month stay there ba.

Really miss those days then....Those good old days...

Daily activity is to laze by the beach with a book during the day, having YuMMylicious food @ Gurney Drive, Tanjung Bunga & Batu Ferringhi, watching the sun set every evening & sipping on wine every nite....

Penang Laksa, Char Kway Teow, Penang Rojak, Curry Mee, Roast Duck Rice(under my apartment), Fried Chicken Skin, Roti Prata, Seafood, Ramly Burger, Goreng Pisang and Tau Sar peah ....I miss having all this as my daily meal....*drool...drool...drool....*

Hmmmmm..I really miss those days...

That is what I call LIFE!

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@12:54 PM

Monday, September 05, 2005

Had a packed day with activities today.
Got to get up @ abt 8 plus to battle wif my international finance notes coz the exam is tonite & Im still not done with my revision...
But couldnt really concentrate on the last 2 topics so juz skimmed thru it & look @ the supposedly tips question fm uncle mok-->ya he is my finance lectuer...

Actually mind was wandering to dear half the time, wandering if he is feeling better or not?

Called him around noon to check on him & he insist he was feeling better, but dun really sound like coz most of the time he kept sniffing, nag @ him to go c the doc (been nagging @ him for the last 3 days already oh.)

That sturbbon big boy...

So in the end, I decide to pop by his place to surprise him & to drag him to the doc.

Haha...together with his mum nagging....he didn't have the chance to say NO!

So in future, it's more effective to let the force combine..haha...get things done without any glitch...

After visiting the doc & dinner, got to make my way down to sch for the test...

Haizz..as usual uncle mok tips prove to be "very very reliable", got about 10 qns is 'tikam' wan haha... but I know by His grace, we will be able to score @ least a D.....definately will, coz I claimed it already hee hee..coz I'm god's beloved hee...

Just spending a few hours with dear dear make me miss him more.. if not for the test, I would have skip sch already ba hee hee...

Well dear, sorry I cant be there to take care of u when u r not well & cant feed u medicine but do rem to finish up ur med k & hope that you will recover soon.

Get Well soon..coz I miss the chirpy & nonsensical you & most importantly, juz cant bear to see you sickly & worn out.

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@10:28 PM

Sweet Sweet Gesture is when....

--> U allow me to 'vandalise' your hands ( hee hee...you really prove urself to be someone with good patience & high tolerance level of my nonsense.)

--> The look on your face when you make me promise me not to do any disappearing act again.

--> U appear @ my doorstep unannounced (even when u feel unwell)

--> U took a long, long stroll with me home, after dinner. (took 45 mins to walk bk is considered long ba)

--> U carry me on ur arms to walk across the muddy pathway

--> U are always trying to reassure me of ur love when my confidence level run low.

Just feel so loved by u dear.

Just find myself falling more and more in love with you each day dear.

I LUB YOU!

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@11:31 AM