Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Today entry is dedicated to William Yaw Wai Lian (haha..I know he love me calling him tis way)
(who left Spore today)
Yesterday meet him in the evening for dinner... had jap food again, that is what we usually have when we meet up for meal, but this will probably be for the last time.
After dinner, decide to pop over to Kbox to satisfy my ktv-ing craving....
Halfway thru the session, both of us realise that we have not go for ktv together for a long, long time already...hmmmmm was it abt 2 years?
Haizzz but I never regret missing those time.....you know why? Coz William can't read chinese character...thus I got to read out the lyrics to him verses by verses..trust me..it is very tiring..at the end of the session, my mouth is tired not with all the singing but with those speed reading..haha...
But I must say, I really did had a great time there, singing cute, cute songs by Wang Fu and many other super high high songs haha....
After ktv session, drop by his place for a drink as well to collect the moo-moo cow he got for me & a few bottles of wine...hee hee now my collection is really growing..
1 thing I must say is that Cabernet Shiraz really dun suit my palate. 2nd time I'm drinking this & I really think it does taste Yucky!!
Catch up alot too that night....many, many things that he once kept it from me was shared.
Maybe he does feel that he might not be coming back, so might as well bare everything to me.
I learned a lot that night....makes me sad...make me feel bad...makes me feel guilty...makes me happy...makes me touched..makes me thankful.
Sad that you are leaving & I wun be able to see & tok to u as & when I like.
Feel bad that I can't give you anything in return for your love, concern, care, time, effort put in me.
Feel guility that for so long you have always been there for me but I never realise it, but think you had forsaken me.
Happy that what a true friend I have found in you.
Touched for the love, the things you done for me.
Thankful for befriending you & you always standing by me.
William...William....what can I say?
It all started off with a chat outside at the terrace on Oct 2002, followed by a phone call that night...when did we become close friends i dun quite remember? when did I start liking you I oso dun rem...
What I rem now is the time when the both of us were promoted to jr captain the same time, you had helped me alot, guiding me thru & always helping me with the big tray & heavy stuff.
Becoz of my injured wrist, you will always help me carry those heavy stuff or get the other colleague to help me...& you will always, always throw daggers @ me when seeing me carry heavy stuff .
Rem 23rd Dec 2002? Like you always say, it is definately the most 'suayest' day of my life. But so thankful that you came to shield me away from the 'xiao cha bo' who was barking @ me, when I was not @ fault, thank you for searching me high & low around the hotel when I ran away crying. Feel sad enough that I was wrongly reprimanded, & accused of not being a good supervisor coz I did not teach my staff well by that tooo-pid guest...But thank you for comforting me over dinner. but as u rem..my ordeal was far fm over...I trip & fell @ the stairs...glad that you were there to break my fall if not I would had substain more serious injuries ba. Juz so thankful that you was there to go thru that difficult day with me.
What I will always rem is the boozing days @ Gossip, Caesar & Paulaner, tepanyaki meal @ bugis, cable car ride to Sentosa & the musical fountain, me helping you to move ur stuff to ur new place, countless movie session.
Memories that are so fond..that are very alive in me.
I used to wonder why we couldn't get together after so long, after so much, but I juz couldn't get an answer.
When you want us to be together, I was uncertain, but when I made up my mind, you pushed me away....& the cycle went on for 2 yrs.
What I can say now is that, after going through this ups & down together, we know that this friendship built up is so precious & valuable that we juz dun wanna risk it by going into a relationship.
Though sometimes it will ache, but Im juz glad that things are kept the way it is now.
Juz so thankful that you are always there for me, sometimes even without me knowing, but you always stay on by my side...like what you called yourself, my shadow.
Juz wanna apologise that I had took up so much of ur time but can't give anything in return. But this time you can concentrate on building ur career without having to worry about me coz like what u said, I have grown up, I know what I want with my life already, I know how to take good care of myself & I had also meet a very nice guy-->Chris who will take good care of me. Pls dun let me hold you back in ur plans, if not I will feel more guilty.
I sincerely hope that you will be successful in building a new career path in msia, so that the next time I see you, you are already a 'Big Towkay" & can drive me around in Mercedes or BMW...hee hee....
I am already missing ur presence in my life..juz wanna let u know that you always hold a special place in my heart..so if you ever need someone, Im always there for you, no matter the miles between us.
Jia You oh...my guiding star....
